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You're Not Ulysses
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I am in love with the new Franz Ferdinand album, 'nuff said.
Things as of late have been insane and raucous and mystifying. I'm questioning everything, and now I have no idea what I want to do.
As things stand, I've been accepted everywhere I want to be accepted. My dream school accepted me, the program I really wanted accepted me, as did my second choice. Financially, I'll be pushing things by going with my dream choice. I desperately want to go, but I also need about $15,000 in extra money to do so, and I have no idea where I'm gonna get it. I applied for Fine Arts programs, and I haven't heard back, but now I'm questioning whether I really want to go into art. I love art, but as of late I've been incapable of producing anything, wanting to produce anything, or really having the time outside of class to do anything. I'm seriously considering taking the English Major I love as well, and leaving Art as a hobby. English has remained an enduring love for me, and it might be the way to go. Maybe with a minor or double major in Classics? I don't know.
My parents have kind of built up this expectation in terms of art, they didn't like it, but seem obsessed with it all the same. I want to go to my dream program, but money is tight as it is, and I think I'm being unfair by asking for such a thing. They'll never say that, but I know it's true. And logically, I have a younger brother going to university in three years, and he wants to be an engineer, EXPENSIVE.
I'm really confused, and I don't really know who to talk to, yay. Why is choosing my future so difficult and expensive? I think it's almost unfair to force me into such a decision so early, but at the same time, I don't want to take a year off (I know I'll get nothing done), and I don't want to stay in high school for another year. What a pickle I'm in. I wish there was something between high school and university.
Just a rant. I need money. Can I get money for ranting?
-Cambriane
PS. I finally saw that whole "I'm F*cking Matt Damon" and such forth, VERY FUNNY!
Things as of late have been insane and raucous and mystifying. I'm questioning everything, and now I have no idea what I want to do.
As things stand, I've been accepted everywhere I want to be accepted. My dream school accepted me, the program I really wanted accepted me, as did my second choice. Financially, I'll be pushing things by going with my dream choice. I desperately want to go, but I also need about $15,000 in extra money to do so, and I have no idea where I'm gonna get it. I applied for Fine Arts programs, and I haven't heard back, but now I'm questioning whether I really want to go into art. I love art, but as of late I've been incapable of producing anything, wanting to produce anything, or really having the time outside of class to do anything. I'm seriously considering taking the English Major I love as well, and leaving Art as a hobby. English has remained an enduring love for me, and it might be the way to go. Maybe with a minor or double major in Classics? I don't know.
My parents have kind of built up this expectation in terms of art, they didn't like it, but seem obsessed with it all the same. I want to go to my dream program, but money is tight as it is, and I think I'm being unfair by asking for such a thing. They'll never say that, but I know it's true. And logically, I have a younger brother going to university in three years, and he wants to be an engineer, EXPENSIVE.
I'm really confused, and I don't really know who to talk to, yay. Why is choosing my future so difficult and expensive? I think it's almost unfair to force me into such a decision so early, but at the same time, I don't want to take a year off (I know I'll get nothing done), and I don't want to stay in high school for another year. What a pickle I'm in. I wish there was something between high school and university.
Just a rant. I need money. Can I get money for ranting?
-Cambriane
PS. I finally saw that whole "I'm F*cking Matt Damon" and such forth, VERY FUNNY!
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Panic and Fear
2 min read
It is the new year, I've posted a couple of time, but actually I've been focused mainly on school and getting everything ready for my portfolios! Applying for art school is hard... I kind of envy those business and math kids. I could probably get a 95 in math if I didn't spend all of my time doodling and what not. Lies, I could never do that.
Thankfully a couple of the schools I'm applying at do not need scholarships, but my two favourites need them, and I'm killing myself trying to put together something DECENT. Something standout-amazing-brilliant-awesome. All while juggling for hard subjects and the rest of my life, WOO.
Not excited. I need to like bury myself in a cave for a week (go all Edgar Allen Poe-like), and only do art. I need to o reference drawings and perspective and architecture (none of which I've ever HAD to do or wanted to do because they scare me), but its all about experience and showing I'm totally AWESOME.
Trying to write too but I'm failing. FAILING. Writer's craft is for that, hopefully I'll manage to keep up.
Just ranting,
Love <3
Cambriane.
ARTISTS TO CHECK OUT:
FionaMeng
Konjuku
sparkbearer
Himmapaan
Thankfully a couple of the schools I'm applying at do not need scholarships, but my two favourites need them, and I'm killing myself trying to put together something DECENT. Something standout-amazing-brilliant-awesome. All while juggling for hard subjects and the rest of my life, WOO.
Not excited. I need to like bury myself in a cave for a week (go all Edgar Allen Poe-like), and only do art. I need to o reference drawings and perspective and architecture (none of which I've ever HAD to do or wanted to do because they scare me), but its all about experience and showing I'm totally AWESOME.
Trying to write too but I'm failing. FAILING. Writer's craft is for that, hopefully I'll manage to keep up.
Just ranting,
Love <3
Cambriane.
ARTISTS TO CHECK OUT:
FionaMeng
Konjuku
sparkbearer
Himmapaan
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New Age Love Songs...
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...for Broken Hearts and Shattered Minds
I like the wording of that, sounds like a potential short story eh? I haven't been writing nearly enough. I've been inspired lately though, by things going on around me, and with me, but I still haven't decided whether or not they're good or bad.
Inspiration as of late has come through the negative in my life, which is a little sad, but what the hell, it works right? By the way, check out estallidos, because she is amazing and possibly one of my favourite writers as of late. Her work is brilliant.
Panicking over my exam projects. I have no formal exams this semester, but I do have two ISUs, a test and a self-directed exam piece to do. Yippee, exams are too easy. Media arts is hard, no greater challenge is giving an artist marks for doing WHATEVER they want. It's crazy business.
Christmas is coming up, which cheers me up, but there's no snow, so that makes me a little sad as well. I'm hoping for a white Christmas!
Just updating. And advertising.
Love,
Cambriane
I like the wording of that, sounds like a potential short story eh? I haven't been writing nearly enough. I've been inspired lately though, by things going on around me, and with me, but I still haven't decided whether or not they're good or bad.
Inspiration as of late has come through the negative in my life, which is a little sad, but what the hell, it works right? By the way, check out estallidos, because she is amazing and possibly one of my favourite writers as of late. Her work is brilliant.
Panicking over my exam projects. I have no formal exams this semester, but I do have two ISUs, a test and a self-directed exam piece to do. Yippee, exams are too easy. Media arts is hard, no greater challenge is giving an artist marks for doing WHATEVER they want. It's crazy business.
Christmas is coming up, which cheers me up, but there's no snow, so that makes me a little sad as well. I'm hoping for a white Christmas!
Just updating. And advertising.
Love,
Cambriane
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The Beginning after the end
2 min read
Title taken from a song by the amazing Indie band Stars. I'm addicted. Lovely song, lovely album.
I've been intending to post more, but my life has been a little out of sorts as of late. I hope to resolve it all soon, but it involves those very close to me and it will be difficult. Life goes on though right?
I've been frustrated because of the problems in my life, and that puts me in a bit of a rut. I hope after this I'll be able to work hard and finish my portfolio, all in time to apply for OCAD, my dream school! And several other back-up universities as well. Heh.
So be surprised to be spammed a bit, I'll be posting my assignment and portfolio work here often! Comments are much appreciated!
Love,
Cambriane
Oh the blood and the treasure
And then losing it all
the time that we wasted
and the place where we fall.
Will we wake in the morning
and what it was all for?
Up in our bedroom after the war.
-The Beginning After The End - Stars
I've been intending to post more, but my life has been a little out of sorts as of late. I hope to resolve it all soon, but it involves those very close to me and it will be difficult. Life goes on though right?
I've been frustrated because of the problems in my life, and that puts me in a bit of a rut. I hope after this I'll be able to work hard and finish my portfolio, all in time to apply for OCAD, my dream school! And several other back-up universities as well. Heh.
So be surprised to be spammed a bit, I'll be posting my assignment and portfolio work here often! Comments are much appreciated!
Love,
Cambriane
Oh the blood and the treasure
And then losing it all
the time that we wasted
and the place where we fall.
Will we wake in the morning
and what it was all for?
Up in our bedroom after the war.
-The Beginning After The End - Stars
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Cloud Number Nine
2 min read
Sorry for spamming away with the posts lately... I really don't mean to submit a thousand things at the same time! Really! It's just how it works.
I really have to get to work on my portfolio, some of the stuff here is going to go in it, but not all of it! I have to do research on what is good to go in. I'm already at a bit of a disadvantage because I can't do oil painting, too expensive and I neither have space at school or at home to do it. And we're not allowed to at school >_>. Whatever, I'll work hard and get it done! I bought more art supplies (including more paint...I always need more paint >.<). I'm ready to go!
My spirits are lifted too, so I'm in a much better mood, and that helps me do stuff... kinda. I'm trying to clean up my room to give myself more room to work, not going so well, I'm scared of my desk... Stuff falls off of it whenever I touch it.
I hope to post more photos soon, once I get my hands on the originals from my trip, which are all on my dad's computer. I'm also in the process of updating my own computer, s everything is really messed up. Yay!
I really have to get to work on my portfolio, some of the stuff here is going to go in it, but not all of it! I have to do research on what is good to go in. I'm already at a bit of a disadvantage because I can't do oil painting, too expensive and I neither have space at school or at home to do it. And we're not allowed to at school >_>. Whatever, I'll work hard and get it done! I bought more art supplies (including more paint...I always need more paint >.<). I'm ready to go!
My spirits are lifted too, so I'm in a much better mood, and that helps me do stuff... kinda. I'm trying to clean up my room to give myself more room to work, not going so well, I'm scared of my desk... Stuff falls off of it whenever I touch it.
I hope to post more photos soon, once I get my hands on the originals from my trip, which are all on my dad's computer. I'm also in the process of updating my own computer, s everything is really messed up. Yay!
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